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	» Age: 30s » Species: Human » A5 Card: Open » Seeking: Companionship, mainly. Friends, allies, and lovers, also welcome. » Preferences: Likeminded men and women. Not too old, not too young. » Interests: Fashion, art, calligraphy, antiques, poetry, politics, astronomy, bird collection, strategy games, and erotic literature. » Bio: Single sect leader seeking potential wife and cultivation partner, sexual companionship, and business associates. Additional benefits available.
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	Nie Huaisang

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[illicitly]

[Huaisang listens, smiling to himself, at how excited his boyfriend sounds about his adventure. Before this place, he might've asked more questions about just who this woman was out of insecurity but he's working harder on trusting and having more faith in people again.]

I think I'm doing all right. The shop's pretty quiet and I'm mostly just following Shi-xiong's lead. I think we're settling into a routine here. I do my best to make sure we're both ready every morning. I think I'm adjusting.

[A brief pause.]

It's nice to have some structure again. The work's different that from home but it helps.

[taintedpeony]

[Of course if asked he would be honest with him, his goddess friend whom he cares for but neither of them want anything more than that. Huaisang always comes first.

He smiles softly at his voice as he listens. Who knew just having these small conversations with him could help him feel so settled. Was this what love was?]

I am so proud of you A-Sang. It will pick up again after the summer season is over. Shi Qingxuan is a really kind person. And I am glad that you are both helping each other.

I know that it is a different type of routine, but it is one that suits you better I think. You are so artistic and fashionable and this way you can help others feel good in how they look as well.

[A pause and blush.]

Have you received the notes I've left for you?

[He has been leaving small paper flowers with some love poetry written on them for him, before the days he worked. Thier shifts opposed one another and he worked at the cafe on other days, but he wanted to leave him reminders of how much he was loved.]

[illicitly]

[Huaisang blushes at the mention of the note. He has found them, gathering up each one, and saving them in a drawer. He hasn't spoken of them to anyone yet, not even Shi Qingxuan. It's all still so new to him. Never in his life has he been one to inspire such heartfelt, romantic gestures from anyone. It's all still very personal and he's shy, maybe even somewhat embarrassed to admit to anyone else just how much of a novice he is when it comes to love.]

I have. They've all been really lovely. They brighten up my day but I can't help but think you flatter me too much sometimes...

[But he still likes them a lot. He's just still adjusting to a lot, including being the object of such affections.]

I really mean that. They're beautiful. You're beautiful.

[Such a drastic turn of events, really, but he much prefers it to the plotting, fighting, and fearing one another.]

[taintedpeony]

Nevermore than you deserve my heart. I want to profess to you how much I love you every single day. We lost so much time after all and I fear I may need to make up for 18 years now.

[His voice was soft, his heart beating fast. He was blushing deeply as well. He thought he was beautiful. This kind gentle gorgeous man. He cuddled into his pillows a bit more.]

I love you, Nie Huaisang. You are so beautiful. Do let me know if I am being too much though. I do not wish to overwhelm you either.

[He wanted to remind him, write something against every terrible thing that was said to him, as if he could erase them one flower at a time.

He was a romantic it seemed.]

I feel like a youth in love. I know I am being so silly.

[illicitly]

[Huaisang understands the urgency. They had wasted so many years focusing on their schemes, other people, and avoiding facing the truth of their own feelings, and now they're both living together on borrowed time. Will these developments ever lose that strange, surreal feeling? He just doesn't know. But knows he wants to spend his life here with those he cannot be with back home on the off-chance that he wakes up again in that world all alone.

His arms are aching to hold his lover but with him elsewhere on the island, he satisfies himself with the pillow on the sofa.]

I love you, too, A-Yao. I feel the same way. I never expected any of this. I'm a grown man yet I'm fumbling my way through all of this like a teenager. I can't help but laugh at myself for being so unprepared for any of this.

[Everything had been so compartmentalized. Now everything is overturned, their contents scattered everywhere, and he's only begun to start putting things back in their proper places.]

But I'll tell you when it's too much and I need space to catch my breath again. Everything's moved so fast... Yet it's been nearly twenty years we met! Does that count as taking it slow?

[taintedpeony]

[They have known one another a lifetime, and yet were learning one another again. Both were so afraid to show themselves. And they were in an impossible circumstance. A singular place where they could love each other, without the worry of reputation or responsibility. Perhaps not free from judgment but that didn't matter as much to him these days.

Jin Ziyao wanted to take this chance. To be able to love him wholly and fully. Like Huaisang deserved to be loved and in turn be loved how he himself had always wanted.]

Yes, it was quite a surprise. But I think the gods may have a sense of humor. Not a surprise I mind though.

As teens, we were both in war, perhaps now that we are in our middle age we are making up for that by acting like mooning youths. [He said with a small breathy laugh.]

My sweet, thank you.

[More laughter.]

I would say so. We have been dancers, and sometimes the tempo of the dance is fast and sometimes slow...But you are the only one who knows the same steps as me.