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	» Age: 30s » Species: Human » A5 Card: Open » Seeking: Companionship, mainly. Friends, allies, and lovers, also welcome. » Preferences: Likeminded men and women. Not too old, not too young. » Interests: Fashion, art, calligraphy, antiques, poetry, politics, astronomy, bird collection, strategy games, and erotic literature. » Bio: Single sect leader seeking potential wife and cultivation partner, sexual companionship, and business associates. Additional benefits available.
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	Nie Huaisang

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[taintedpeony]

Nevermore than you deserve my heart. I want to profess to you how much I love you every single day. We lost so much time after all and I fear I may need to make up for 18 years now.

[His voice was soft, his heart beating fast. He was blushing deeply as well. He thought he was beautiful. This kind gentle gorgeous man. He cuddled into his pillows a bit more.]

I love you, Nie Huaisang. You are so beautiful. Do let me know if I am being too much though. I do not wish to overwhelm you either.

[He wanted to remind him, write something against every terrible thing that was said to him, as if he could erase them one flower at a time.

He was a romantic it seemed.]

I feel like a youth in love. I know I am being so silly.

[illicitly]

[Huaisang understands the urgency. They had wasted so many years focusing on their schemes, other people, and avoiding facing the truth of their own feelings, and now they're both living together on borrowed time. Will these developments ever lose that strange, surreal feeling? He just doesn't know. But knows he wants to spend his life here with those he cannot be with back home on the off-chance that he wakes up again in that world all alone.

His arms are aching to hold his lover but with him elsewhere on the island, he satisfies himself with the pillow on the sofa.]

I love you, too, A-Yao. I feel the same way. I never expected any of this. I'm a grown man yet I'm fumbling my way through all of this like a teenager. I can't help but laugh at myself for being so unprepared for any of this.

[Everything had been so compartmentalized. Now everything is overturned, their contents scattered everywhere, and he's only begun to start putting things back in their proper places.]

But I'll tell you when it's too much and I need space to catch my breath again. Everything's moved so fast... Yet it's been nearly twenty years we met! Does that count as taking it slow?

[taintedpeony]

[They have known one another a lifetime, and yet were learning one another again. Both were so afraid to show themselves. And they were in an impossible circumstance. A singular place where they could love each other, without the worry of reputation or responsibility. Perhaps not free from judgment but that didn't matter as much to him these days.

Jin Ziyao wanted to take this chance. To be able to love him wholly and fully. Like Huaisang deserved to be loved and in turn be loved how he himself had always wanted.]

Yes, it was quite a surprise. But I think the gods may have a sense of humor. Not a surprise I mind though.

As teens, we were both in war, perhaps now that we are in our middle age we are making up for that by acting like mooning youths. [He said with a small breathy laugh.]

My sweet, thank you.

[More laughter.]

I would say so. We have been dancers, and sometimes the tempo of the dance is fast and sometimes slow...But you are the only one who knows the same steps as me.