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Nie Huaisang | 聂怀桑 ([personal profile] illicitly) wrote2020-06-29 11:33 pm
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» Age: 30s
» Species: Human
» A5 Card: Open
» Seeking: Companionship, mainly. Friends, allies, and lovers, also welcome.
» Preferences: Likeminded men and women. Not too old, not too young.
» Interests: Fashion, art, calligraphy, antiques, poetry, politics, astronomy, bird collection, strategy games, and erotic literature.
» Bio: Single sect leader seeking potential wife and cultivation partner, sexual companionship, and business associates. Additional benefits available.
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Nie Huaisang
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[personal profile] taintedpeony 2021-05-23 09:01 am (UTC)(link)
You, as well as I know that those dreams have deeper meanings. Otherwise, I wouldn't have a square lit up with your name next to it.

'Messy' apparently if you were wondering.

If it is an auspicious act that was accepted by the Augur, it cannot be a dream. We must have had sex.

Hence, we need to talk.
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[personal profile] taintedpeony 2021-05-23 09:14 am (UTC)(link)
[Deep inhale.


Deep exhale.


He didn't care that his cultivation was low.


He was this close to just running in there and suplexing the man. What a brat.]


You're deflecting as if I don't know that you are.

I'm finishing Koi tower. Including the ancestral halls. I still need to build a proper memorial for A-Su.

But that is neither here nor there.
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[personal profile] taintedpeony 2021-05-23 09:32 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know.

Everything. It has only been a month and a few weeks. I don't even have incense sticks or a tablet. I'm going to have to fill squares for all of that.

...I should be wearing white.

The only thing in white I have is Xichen's underrobes.

Why would I want your aid?
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[personal profile] taintedpeony 2021-05-23 09:48 am (UTC)(link)
[He really should go about looking for more clothing in general. He only had his single Jin sect clothing and Maid uniform.

He had taken into wearing Xichen's spare underrobes when moving around the UC. It felt safe and it smelled like him. He took comfort in what he could.]
Okay.

[Does one say thank you? He can't really. It would be like Nie Huaisang thanking him for his aid after... Well knowingly doing so.]

What a fucking mess.

I think I need a vacation.
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[personal profile] taintedpeony 2021-05-23 10:28 am (UTC)(link)
I expected as much. You will have to inform Da-ge of that yourself. I am no longer taking care of Nie Sect matters that don't involve the mundane care of everyone.

[None of his business. He was just done having to run around for a decade at Huaisang's beck and call. His worst trait was that he ran himself ragged for whatever was needed of him. and Huaisang knew he loved being needed and used it as both a yoke and blinders. It was something he had to get a rein on if he wanted a better life.]

In any case, are we done deflecting?
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[personal profile] taintedpeony 2021-05-23 05:59 pm (UTC)(link)
That's between you and him.

[There was a long moment where it looked as if he was typing. And then nothing.

Typing.


Nothing.]


You don't think that the fact that you said you loved me should be addressed? What am I even supposed to fucking do with that Nie Huaisang?

You know I am doing this new thing where I am trying to keep my emotions on my face and be more honest? How the fuck am I supposed to deal with that when it comes to your brother?

We need to talk about establishing boundaries so I don't let slip out the wrong information to him and then have you be pissy at me about it. We need to talk about what we do if something like that happens we'll have an established game plan in place.

This place is ridiculous and it'll keep being ridiculous and if we both just fucking hide from it it'll bite us in the ass later. And to be quite fucking truthful, if I'm being bitten on the ass I want it to be because I want it to happen.

If there is anything I've learned in the last two months of being here, is that sex is best when there are negotiations beforehand. I've set up boundaries in all my relationships. If we are going to have some semblance of control in ours we need to talk. While our own relationship is complicated, despite my better fucking judgment I actually do give a shit about what happens to you and your general wellbeing.

Old habits die hard I suppose.
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[personal profile] taintedpeony 2021-05-24 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
Tell him. I won't wish to burden you with keeping my secrets after all.

I was planning to tell him myself. I've told him bits of it already.

But you won't.

I know you won't.


Do you know how I know?

Because you, Nie Huaisang are a fucking coward.

Do you really want to talk about the consequences of my actions to me Nie Huaisang? I have lived with the consequences every single fucking day of my life. I've lived my life having to make hard decisions as a child as a spy as a sect leader and as a leader of the cultivation world at large. This is a familiar demon for me.

But for you.

Oh, but for you, this guilt is a new one.

You are a coward, I killed Da-ge. I killed him for my safety and yours. I killed him because he was going to kill me sooner or later. Even though I loved him I knew he would. It was a matter of time. I killed and dismembered him with my own hands.

But you, wouldn't know what that is like. Your decisions were to convince people to kill themselves. What did Mo Xuanyu do to you to deserve having his soul destroyed? What did Qin Su do to you asides from having the misfortune of loving me? She was kind and sweet but you made her kill herself.


Their blood is on your hands. My blood is on your hands. You didn't even have the bravery of killing me yourself, you had to trick Er-ge to do it for you.

You won't tell your brother because you know that not only did you have to be me to get revenge. You had to be worse.
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[personal profile] taintedpeony 2021-05-24 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
All well and good.

I already know this about myself. What are you doing to better yourself? Do you like yourself Nie Huaisang? Was it justice?

You're still running. Like you always did.

If by any miracle of the gods you wish to actually come and take my life with your own hands for once as a proper Nie.

Let me know and I'll be happy to fight you.

I'll even leave Hensheng at home so it's remotely fair.

But when the Augur inevitably shoves us in that kind of situation again and you apparently just come from not even being touched by me.

Please don't fucking come to me.

I am done with it.
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[personal profile] taintedpeony 2021-05-24 07:50 am (UTC)(link)
Fuck you. Little Bird.

[He's tired and more outwardly angry than he had been since the night he had died. He hung up. He was going to take Hensheng to the training grounds and work it off.

He hated this. He had faced his corpse and chose his death. His death may not have been honorable but it was his.

He tried so hard to be civil. To welcome him back, to work for his keep. To keep the place running. But his labor never meant anything.

He made two decisions then.

1 He was going to tell Nie Mingue and Lan Xichen everything. If he wanted to kill him after this so fucking be it.
2 He was going to ward his home in Koi Tower and stay as far away from Nie Huaisang as possible. He was sick of him.]
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[personal profile] air_head 2021-05-24 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
That's bad luck, you know.

[Shi Qingxuan has stirred awake a short while ago, willing himself back to sleep so as to catch the tail end of a quickly evaporating dream. Being gently and inadvertently jostled and moved about by an engrossed Nie Huaisang hasn't helped lull him back--which is his fault, really. He's the one with both arms firmly about the younger man's waist, head buried into his arm.

Qingxuan has been sleeping clamped to him every other night since his definite return.]


Don't invoke demons. What if a Calamity shows up here, of all things? The islands could definitely will it.
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[personal profile] air_head 2021-05-25 05:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Sounds like a demon king, alright. [Shi Qingxuan mumbles in response, melting at the touch. He surrenders to it like a puppy that's tuckered out from running around for too long. He's never bothered with healing his body after an enthusiastic night of drinking. After all, what a waste of spiritual energy would that be. And he's still young!

It's all what he's been doing lately, especially in the absence of his one other source of company. He hasn't seen Xiao Xingchen around, for some reason. Should he start worrying?]


Mmm. What were you doing? [He lifts himself up just enough to prop an inquisitive head on Huaisang's shoulder, as if he could come across an entrancing reveal from the comfort of their bed.]
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[personal profile] air_head 2021-06-03 09:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[Shi Qingxuan has been alive for a long time.

There aren't many souls around in the heavenly room; a hundred or so at any given time as officials either fall or disappear as the seasons change at a pace incomprehensible to mortal memory. Qingxuan feels intensely, brilliantly, when most would treat their grievances as distant memories, fading with time.

Every friendship weighs as profoundly as the first turn of the season, on him.

He shifts to prop a chin over Huaisang's shoulder, taking in every word with a noncommittal noise or another. He's ready to dip into his considerable pool of history until the tail end of Huaisang's explanation catches him unaware.

Qingxuan is not a martial deity. And while he's not a stranger to taking the souls of those who've wronged others, their innocence never presented any space for contemplation. Every action of his in his long life has been just.

Ah, Huaisang... He hears the echoes of his own brother in the voice of the vulnerable man. Only, the older Shi would have stuck to every questionable decision with an iron clad resoluteness.]


Have you forgiven them, for now? While they're here, Nie-xiong?

[He asks tentatively, fairly ready to accept any answer he may get.]
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[personal profile] air_head 2021-06-05 06:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[Shi Qingxuan disentangles himself just enough so that he's no longer overwhelming Huaisang with his longer body, shifting him to rest in his arms instead. He presses his slender fingers along the high point of Huaisang's cheeks, catching his tears before they make a streak in down his paling face.]

You've taken your justice. [His own heart hurts at the thought of someone doing the same to his own older brother, the light of his life.

Heavenly Officials, after all, would never reincarnate.

His free hand splays against Huaisang's back, moving in soothing circles so as to ease the tremors vibrating within his body, and perhaps put ease to the tension in Qingxuan's body at the thought. A part of him remains chilled to the core at the image.]


You've taken your justice, Nie-xion. But forgiveness is not part of justice. Even so, everyone else he's harmed would have to forgive him first.

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