[It really is a lot to take in but Huaisang listens to every word, regardless. He just lets A-Yao talk and say what he needs to. He'd asked these questions for a reason, after all.
His eyes widen at the mention of Shen Qingqiu and not for the fact he was effectively pinned by his roommate, he might have sat up. Was it really possible? Might his advisor here know of a way to halt his brother's progression toward qi deviation? Shen Qingqiu was certainly powerful and enlightened, far more than any cultivator Huaisang's known personally, but he'd never thought to ask the man, given that Nie Mingjue had been long dead at the time they'd met and his own aversion to the saber.
He's getting distracted though. Huaisang takes a deep breath to bring himself back into focus.]
What you want with them may not be possible. You can't fix what was done to them. Maybe with Xichen-ge you can but... The crimes have already been committed. The victims have already suffered. You can take comfort in honoring the dead. Change your ways and don't repeat your offenses with those who are present here.
[Really, how did he get into this? He sighs. There's more points he could argue but Huaisang's tired and aside from the matter of Nie Mingjue's well-being in all of this, he doesn't particularly care. Not in the way Huaisang would have in their younger years. Not with the same depth of emotion. The scars on his heart run too deep now. That he's listening at all and hasn't simply hung up on Jin Guangyao is an act of extreme generosity itself.
But he knows what it's like to be scared, alone, and full of secrets that can never be shared with others, either to protect them or himself from harm. It's the way of being he relates to most these days.]
If you want to feel safe and loved, maybe you should consider friendship first. Start slow, take your time with them. Is there a particular reason to rush things here? I can't be sure how I long I was here before but it was for a couple of seasons, at least.
[Then again, Huaisang had gotten distracted by feelings for Wei Wuxian shortly after his arrival and proceeded to spend the next three months chaste and sexually frustrated him until the object of his affection vanished, leaving him to Xue Yang's attentions whether he'd wanted them or not. What does he know about how to proceed here, really?]
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His eyes widen at the mention of Shen Qingqiu and not for the fact he was effectively pinned by his roommate, he might have sat up. Was it really possible? Might his advisor here know of a way to halt his brother's progression toward qi deviation? Shen Qingqiu was certainly powerful and enlightened, far more than any cultivator Huaisang's known personally, but he'd never thought to ask the man, given that Nie Mingjue had been long dead at the time they'd met and his own aversion to the saber.
He's getting distracted though. Huaisang takes a deep breath to bring himself back into focus.]
What you want with them may not be possible. You can't fix what was done to them. Maybe with Xichen-ge you can but... The crimes have already been committed. The victims have already suffered. You can take comfort in honoring the dead. Change your ways and don't repeat your offenses with those who are present here.
[Really, how did he get into this? He sighs. There's more points he could argue but Huaisang's tired and aside from the matter of Nie Mingjue's well-being in all of this, he doesn't particularly care. Not in the way Huaisang would have in their younger years. Not with the same depth of emotion. The scars on his heart run too deep now. That he's listening at all and hasn't simply hung up on Jin Guangyao is an act of extreme generosity itself.
But he knows what it's like to be scared, alone, and full of secrets that can never be shared with others, either to protect them or himself from harm. It's the way of being he relates to most these days.]
If you want to feel safe and loved, maybe you should consider friendship first. Start slow, take your time with them. Is there a particular reason to rush things here? I can't be sure how I long I was here before but it was for a couple of seasons, at least.
[Then again, Huaisang had gotten distracted by feelings for Wei Wuxian shortly after his arrival and proceeded to spend the next three months chaste and sexually frustrated him until the object of his affection vanished, leaving him to Xue Yang's attentions whether he'd wanted them or not. What does he know about how to proceed here, really?]