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[Okay, burrowing seemed like it was a better option. He can wash his robes he supposed but something about the cover of the bushes...Just seemed nice. He didn't know what about his panic attack made him feel like some sort of small feral animal. But on the other hand, both Xichen and Mingue were huge and less likely to find him curled up in a place like this. When Huaisang saw him next he was well covered under the flowers. His face lit up from the light of his device.]

I... know. I've mostly been eating what I make and some of the food at the cafe. [He took a breath.]

I don't know. I really don't.

[When the fuck did they switch places like this?! Okay he was just gonna take some deep breaths here.]

I don't know.

I...I had taken it to put away for him? He had me untie it from his hair... So I suppose I must have. I fucking accepted it. Even though I know

I do. I'm so conflicted. And when Mingjue kissed him, he started crying... He's from just after.. and it is all my fault...Just looking at them made me feel so fucking guilty...How did I make such a fucking mess in two days?

...I'm still lying to them.[A wracked sob escaped his lips and he covered his mouth with a hand.]