[Huaisang chuckles a bit, wrapping his arms a bit more snugly around Shi Qingquan and nuzzles the back of his head a moment. Contrary to what one might believe about him, most of his fantasies aren't sexual in nature so much as intimate. Quiet, restful moments where he can just relax and enjoy being with someone he cares for.]

Of course you were. Even when I thought you were just a dream, I remembered you.

[His voice comes out in a blissful murmur. Moments of simple peace and contentment are so rare. His thoughts on Jin Guangyao are complicated; the thin thread of rebuilding trust still fragile and so easily snapped, The less he ponders it, the better for now; he needs time to rest and recover before anything else can be done there.

Besides, the last person he wants to think about is Jin Guangyao when he has someone far more pleasant to reflect upon right in his arms.]

Every night I'd go to sleep, I kept hoping I would see you again. I never did but still, I kept hoping. It was the first thing I'd hoped for in a long time.

[He wants to kiss more than just Shi Qingxuan's hair but he's still figuring out what he wants to say and getting up the nerve to say it. It's hard being shy about these things.]