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Spare me the sob story.

I'm going to enlighten you about something I've observed about people who live in the real world, Jin Guangyao.

No one cares.

All they look at is what you do and what other people in your position have done in comparison and judge according to what they personally value.

Plenty of others have suffered similar misfortunes to yourself, Jin Guangyao. Many chose to walk a more righteous path than you did. Some even chose a righteous path because of the suffering they experienced.

[The jabs about Mo Xuanyu and Qin Su hurt but he accepts it. After all, Huaisang's well aware of the blood on his hands. The debt he owes to them but his decisions were not one of a criminal seeking to selfishly cover his tracks for his own benefit. But whatever steps to atone that Huaisang wants or needs to make have been derailed by this selfish bastard's need to make everything about his own suffering without respect or consideration for the lives of other people.]

Don't drag me down to your level. The errors of judgement and mistakes that I have made are not the same as the selfish choices you make. All you are doing is lying to yourself to avoid facing the reality of what you have done. You are lying to yourself now to evade responsibility for your actions and now you are dragging my brother into your willful depravity once more.

If you had any real sense of honor or decency in you, you would not have made advances on either of them. You would break it off and walk away from them both instead of inflict yourself on them. But you didn't and you won't because in the end, the only person who truly care about is yourself.

[He won't allow himself to be provoked into retaliating any further than this or getting sucked any further into the cesspool that is Jin Guangyao. He'd buried them both. His brother, twice now. He can't let himself fall back into those old obsessions that utterly destroyed everything that had been important to him.]