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Tell him. I won't wish to burden you with keeping my secrets after all.

I was planning to tell him myself. I've told him bits of it already.

But you won't.

I know you won't.

Do you know how I know?

Because you, Nie Huaisang are a fucking coward.

Do you really want to talk about the consequences of my actions to me Nie Huaisang? I have lived with the consequences every single fucking day of my life. I've lived my life having to make hard decisions as a child as a spy as a sect leader and as a leader of the cultivation world at large. This is a familiar demon for me.

But for you.

Oh, but for you, this guilt is a new one.

You are a coward, I killed Da-ge. I killed him for my safety and yours. I killed him because he was going to kill me sooner or later. Even though I loved him I knew he would. It was a matter of time. I killed and dismembered him with my own hands.

But you, wouldn't know what that is like. Your decisions were to convince people to kill themselves. What did Mo Xuanyu do to you to deserve having his soul destroyed? What did Qin Su do to you asides from having the misfortune of loving me? She was kind and sweet but you made her kill herself.

Their blood is on your hands. My blood is on your hands. You didn't even have the bravery of killing me yourself, you had to trick Er-ge to do it for you.

You won't tell your brother because you know that not only did you have to be me to get revenge. You had to be worse.