By the time you figure out the rules I broke

"Y-Yes, I do. It's been a long time since I've shared my bed with someone, even just to sleep."

He'd thought of nothing else but ending this man's life and exposing every wrong he'd ever done for ten years. With him gone, it'd been easier to think of a new plan to devote himself to in order to keep moving forward along some sort of structured path. Now that Meng Yao's alive again and he himself is separated from sect all that he knows, he feels like he's falling, desperate to cling to anything or anyone familiar.

"...and no rules. Just do whatever you want with me, at least for a while. Prove I can trust you if only a little."

Unconciously, his fingers flex against Meng Yao's.