By the time you figure out the rules I broke

"He might have to carry us there if it's as bad as it is now." His fingers do tighten around Huaisang's though, eyes still closed as he does his best not to move.

It's not his first time being beaten but this time it was worse. The guilt didn't help, even if he knew they hadn't really done anything wrong. Gusu standards were different from the other sects and it wasn't like he'd actually planned this.