"I can try." He should be able to do it. Even if it just's for a letter. For some way to make this not turn into the disaster that keeps playing through his mind.

But even if it is, he's not going to walk away from it. He's just...He'll have to find a way to make it through without sacrificing everything he wants.

Or the boy holding him right now. Because he wants Huaisang in a way he's never wanted anything else before.