"I want to marry you," he blurts out. "I want to have a family with you somehow. Even if we have to run away."

He'd been preparing to defect on a more permanent basis and walk away from this joyless life before the Augur had released them from the island.

"Whoever wants to lead can take it. I don't care anymore."

He's shaming his ancestors with his fervent desire to be with him and probably undoing ten years of labor. But he's done everything can. Is it so wrong for him to want some semblance of peace and happiness for himself in the end?

"I want to go to sleep and wake up with you every day. I want to be able to come home to you and make love every night."

His voice is shaking with the strength of his emotions and for a moment, all he can do is cling to Jin Ziyao and try to calm himself again.